I’ve wanted to write this post for a very long time. In fact, I’ve written draft after draft, only to delete it and walk away.
I think because I still lived with the memory of being stalked from this blog. It sucked but now it’s a part of my past. I’ve come to understand that the woman who stalked me was wrapped up in her own addiction. I’ve forgiven her. I never thought I’d be able to find that forgiveness in my heart, especially because she involved my children, but I finally did.
For those of you who found this blog by doing a search on your spouse or friend’s sex addiction, I want you to know you’re not alone. This is one hell of a disease. I also want you to know, you are strong enough to get through it. I did. So has my husband. We've been through some really crappy stuff.
It hasn’t been easy. It’s been a ton of hard work. We continue to work on our own recoveries. We’ve learned a lot through trial and error. This blog was maintained before I found S-anon, a program that helped me tremendously. If you haven’t found a support system, I recommend finding one. I tried going it alone for far too long. My ego didn’t support me relying on other people. Trust me, you need them, even if it’s just to talk to someone.
I have another blog. One that shows the true progress I made in healing from the trauma of the affairs and the anger I felt inside. It also talks about my husband’s recovery and his stumbles and how I handled them.
If you’re interested, come visit me at my new blog: Mock Turtle Musings
I wish you all the best in your recoveries.